Hi friends,
New letter alert! I sense a shift of energy. To new beginnings and the sweet sweet love that is all around us.
Thank you for being here with me.
Sending you love,
Xiao-Yu
Letter No. 18
Hey you,
Another year has come to an end. I’ve written a song. If I am honest, for the first time in a long time, it is not entirely for you. I don’t have a word to describe this feeling as I played it aloud. I know you’d be happy to hear that I am letting life reach into my heart.
I am writing to you before I head out. I put on makeup. I am growing my hair out. I am in heels and a navy blue dress. I want to hold your face and look at you. I want to tell you about the small changes accumulated over time. I want to keep you up to date with the new Apple emojis: the animal collection has grown significantly, while the fruit section could use some improvement – not enough berry choices for you. I want to tell you that I have decided to give the string family another chance. I want to let you try my new mango lassi recipe. I want to dance with you. I want to admit to you what triggered my recent experience of schadenfreude.
I am certain that I will not co-create something exactly like what we had. That’s a big relief. Not having that pressure and expectation made it possible to connect with people as they are. When I see parts of you reflected back to me, I smile and say a quick and silent Thank You. I am saying hello and goodbye to you everyday. There is simple beauty and magic in this sacred exchange. I hope you know I love you. I love you always.
The song I wrote is a happy one. It invites people to sing along. I will play for you again when I come back. We are heading towards something new. Do you feel the energy? I checked myself in the mirror again. I love what I saw. The fact that you loved me makes me feel joy inflating in each of my cells. Thank you for sharing your heart of gold with me.
I love you, J.
Happy new year!
Hannah
