My 2023 started without any goals. I picked up where I left off. Perhaps deep down, my intention has been to heal all along. I just didn’t expect more breakdowns along the the way. The beauty about a breakdown is that you are forced to find a workable way to be with yourself and the… Read More: Healing 3.0 »
Good morning. I am waiting on coffee. You? My head is loud today. The usual song and dance of doubts and fear about the future. I put on my earphones and choose to focus on the act of writing. Here is a short story/poem called cure. Happy Friday friends. Glad you are here alive with… Read More: Cure »
I am obsessed with Alexander Chee’s writing. He is a good writer. His words take me back, to when I first touched beauty and God, before I knew such concepts exist. He is also a brave writer. I feast on his words and grow stronger from the nourishment. Like I am real. Like I am… Read More: Reading Alexander Chee »
Hi friends, Is there anything you regret not doing due to fear? Spring is weeks away. My insides swirl a bowl of feelings and thoughts. I want to invite the helpful part out. Every episode (meltdown) shows the infinite reality of being. I am humbled by new encounters with Despair – how imperfect it is.… Read More: Inching Forward »
Hi my friends, Good news first. I managed to take a walk outside today. Seeing the trees budding, the birds circling the pink sky, I felt a sense of aliveness – stark contrast to what I have been feeling. Getting outside helps. Second good news. In talking with my therapist, I felt a glimpse of… Read More: Starting from Square One »
Hello friend, How’s your head doing? I am learning to start again. Sitting in the same chair, typing on the same keyboard, I feel unfamiliar with the person that inhabits my body. My old tricks to cheer her up fall flat. I feel as if I don’t have authority over this living being. Maybe I… Read More: Your Neighbor Who Also Struggles »
Hi friends, Long time no “see”. I hope you are doing well. I hope you are feeling a sense of safety, wellness and love. I am not doing so well, with no surprise to mental health professionals. And I am trying. I am finding my way to live with a collection of complex post traumatic… Read More: Tough Season »