Hi friends,
How’s your anxiety level?
There was a sudden shift in me two nights ago. I started to feel sad and depressed. The sad feeling made me worried that another depressive episode is looming near. Then quickly, my sadness transformed to fear. Fear that I won’t be able to do all the things I want to do. All the wonderful joyful creative things I have planned. Within 30 minutes, I’ve made up a story about how this year is going to turn out and how my life is going to turn out. And it is not a pretty picture!
See how tricky the head is?
Yesterday, I woke up from my nightmare. Today, I woke up from another nightmare.
Yesterday, my friend shared that he had broken up. Today, I am putting cream on my burnt palm. (Use oven mitts and focus when approaching hot stuff!)
Yesterday, the sky was clear blue. Today, the sky is clear blue.
Right now, I feel fortunate to be alive. I feel joyful to be writing. I will let that be enough.
Here are some sky photos. My obsession towards the sky will guide me home. Let’s hope so.
I send you love.
X. Y. Zheng
