I am deeply ashamed. Ashamed of being me. Never good enough. Often scared and anxious. Always grappling with the meaning of existence. What am I to do with this heartbeat? How do I join the ocean and find a sense of belonging? What can I do to stop the pain? In my head, there is… Read More »
To be or not to be continues to shapeshift into a new puzzle. It is not smart to ponder such a question in the depth of depression and anxiety. Alas, I have no place to run but face this utterly human question. Writing might be helpful. The pandemic has made the past present; reality sharp… Read More »
Sweet humans, How have you been? What’s happening in your day-to-day life? Anything good and difficult? These letters I write to you is slowly becoming a form of documentation of my life. Something I did not plan. Something that pushes me towards the edge of honesty. My head still burns. Darkness and heaviness of my… Read More »
Hi there, I am writing to you from my friend’s dining table. The sun is torching in Texas. It is hot and humid. My friend doesn’t like AC, so I am also writing to you in my own sweat – quite miserable and happy. There will always be writing to return to. How have you… Read More »
Hi there, Are you up working, thinking, or are you reading? Are you by yourself? Who/what is next to you? I am up writing. Next to me is my pen, my depression, my journal and my phone. I feel steady enough to write to you today. That makes today a great day. I also climbed… Read More »
Hi there, Are you looking for wisdom from people who seem to have the life you want? What does that life look like? Are you married with kids? What are you doing? Perhaps like me, you have an existential crisis every quarter. Perhaps like me, you are a seeker. Perhaps like me, you are trying… Read More »
On Monday, my internet connection was disrupted. I jumped – in typical rodent manner, I ran in circles trying to get nowhere. I phoned the internet service provider and was connected with a technician that suggested unplugging my modem and replugging it. A technique I have tried. I asked my coworkers to test out whether… Read More »
