My generational trauma work has led me to discuss my lineage with my parents. Some things get revealed. My ancestors are Huns. They were nomadic warriors and great horsemen. According to history, they were ruthless and terrorized Europe and the Roman Empire in the 4th and 5th centuries A.D. First, I am surprised that my… Read More »
I listen to a podcast called We Can Do Hard Things. It is my favorite podcast. Listening is an expensive activity for my brain, so I often replay some episodes. One episode I listened to multiple times this week is the one on March 30th, where one of the hosts discussed her eating disorder recovery.… Read More »
My 2023 started without any goals. I picked up where I left off. Perhaps deep down, my intention has been to heal all along. I just didn’t expect more breakdowns along the the way. The beauty about a breakdown is that you are forced to find a workable way to be with yourself and the… Read More »
Hi my friends, Good news first. I managed to take a walk outside today. Seeing the trees budding, the birds circling the pink sky, I felt a sense of aliveness – stark contrast to what I have been feeling. Getting outside helps. Second good news. In talking with my therapist, I felt a glimpse of… Read More »
Hello my friends, Hi from your mental health advocate. What are some behavior changes you are implementing to best care for yourself? My unusually high level of anxiety has led me to cut out caffeine, processed sugar and alcohol. I am doing the right things. My anxiety is still sky high. The lesson I am… Read More »
I am deeply ashamed. Ashamed of being me. Never good enough. Often scared and anxious. Always grappling with the meaning of existence. What am I to do with this heartbeat? How do I join the ocean and find a sense of belonging? What can I do to stop the pain? In my head, there is… Read More »
To be or not to be continues to shapeshift into a new puzzle. It is not smart to ponder such a question in the depth of depression and anxiety. Alas, I have no place to run but face this utterly human question. Writing might be helpful. The pandemic has made the past present; reality sharp… Read More »
