My generational trauma work has led me to discuss my lineage with my parents. Some things get revealed. My ancestors are Huns. They were nomadic warriors and great horsemen. According to history, they were ruthless and terrorized Europe and the Roman Empire in the 4th and 5th centuries A.D. First, I am surprised that my… Read More »
Fire has a natural allure to me. I understand why. It will burn down everything except what’s true. It keeps me warm and safe and enthused. I told my therapist six years ago. I lost my fire. Where is my fire? I want my bright blue fire back. I also understand why I lost my… Read More »
What to do when you can’t fall asleep? You lay awake and determined to transform yourself to someone who loves to cook – at 1am on a Thursday night. Surely, when you find the right chef to follow and read upon, you will fall in love with the dicing, stirring and sauteing. You start your… Read More »
I listen to a podcast called We Can Do Hard Things. It is my favorite podcast. Listening is an expensive activity for my brain, so I often replay some episodes. One episode I listened to multiple times this week is the one on March 30th, where one of the hosts discussed her eating disorder recovery.… Read More »
My 2023 started without any goals. I picked up where I left off. Perhaps deep down, my intention has been to heal all along. I just didn’t expect more breakdowns along the the way. The beauty about a breakdown is that you are forced to find a workable way to be with yourself and the… Read More »
Good morning. I am waiting on coffee. You? My head is loud today. The usual song and dance of doubts and fear about the future. I put on my earphones and choose to focus on the act of writing. Here is a short story/poem called cure. Happy Friday friends. Glad you are here alive with… Read More »
I am obsessed with Alexander Chee’s writing. He is a good writer. His words take me back, to when I first touched beauty and God, before I knew such concepts exist. He is also a brave writer. I feast on his words and grow stronger from the nourishment. Like I am real. Like I am… Read More »
