Hi kind people of the interwebs,
How’s your week? Any friendly surprises? Did you learn something new?
I realized that I am having a new relationship with Time. I am present (to my best ability). I am actively loving people in my life and being loved.
I enjoy experiencing Time with no preconceived agendas of my own. I am happy. A profound happiness that’s filled with trust, love, loss, mistakes, forgiveness, creativity, and gratitude.
I am THERE. I’ve made it.
Let’s take a deep breath right here. Ah.
And all I have to do is to let life be – the hardest thing.
I am grateful for previous versions of myself. I look forward to meeting the future versions. It took what feels like three lifetimes of suffering, therapy, and difficult work of healing to get here. I can finally hold this life and this person called “me” with nothing but pure love. I wish this upon everyone. And I have no advice to offer. Life will make sure you learn. Let it.
All I can offer you is my presence and my questions. Here are a few for you to reflect on. Use it. Change it to serve you. You know what to do.
- What am I proud of this year?
- What brought me joy this year?
- Who/what made/makes me feel safe, warm and loved?
- What do I need to grieve and forgive?
- What did I learn about myself and the world this year?
It is tempting to focus on the future. The next thing. Tomorrow. Don’t let the allure of future potential fool you. All we have is right now. Right now, I am typing to you with a subtle smile. It is not without miracle that we are here together.
Much gratitude,
Xiaoyu
